days of my life - October 4th, 2007

yesterday night was pretty much like riding on a emotional rollercoaster ( the sentence construction sounds weird ). i was pretty upset that baby came back but didn't message me or picked up my call when i called him :( but he explained later on, but i was still pissed. it was bad enough that i'm like, alone at home most of the time and yet, he forgot our monthsary which i kindly forgave. but not receiving a message from him made me really pissed.

i had so much to tell him, so much to talk to him about. it's been long since i yakked nonstop, and i wanted to talk to him. i wanted to tell him everythg that i wanna do. but i just felt emptiness from within. it was a short call and i asked him to retire for the day.

but after hanging up, i just stared into space & started feeling bad. i really missed him alot, and it proved too much for me to tahan. i called him & started wailing like a baby, yes. he wailed even more horribly! :P it's really amazing that at one point, i could be the baby whining about everything, but the moment he becomes the baby, i would just become the strong girl & wait for him to finish wailing:P

baby, i love you so much! & yes, i finally got to yakkkkk yak yak yak. i wanna go shopping, & he promised me shopping! :D i just need to buy smthng la:P & i said i wanna get dresses, yeah, he say he'll fully support me. but it's so girly, & he said i should be girly.

BTT's next monday, and i've yet to study. weekend definitely got no time to study. and i promised baby i would study today. but really, what's there to study?! :( i'm not being complacent, but maybe i can't understand simplified stuffs? i dont know.

i'm extremely hungry:( but there's nothing to eat at home & i'm lazy to go out. so yeap, it's another day without lunch ditto yesterday:D

i miss my baby boy, i shall continue watching some tv plus youtube, plus study my BTT.

XOXO

i feel so fat after dinner:( my only meal of the day but i still feel so fat. nope, i'm not getting any ED but i just love my flat tummy:D

my cupcakes turned out oh so fine! :) made like 50cupcakes (horrors!) so my poor grandma & aunt have to eat them for me since i'm gonna see them tomorrow! will keep some for my baby boy:) & he's joining all of us for brunch @ tony roma's this sat! :D

i'm feeling damn full :( there's like the cupcakes floating in my tummy now. i wanted to take photos, but too bad. my mom was damn fast. she added in the water, the eggs & POOF. everything is mixed up alr.

i shall bake again soon! :D

i miss my baby boy, he's back in camp already! & he's booking out tomorrow:):) happyyyy i am! :D gotta wake up damn early tomorrow. BTT coming, gotta STUDY. i want my license like NOW. 3.3mil toto tonight leh! i hope daddy strikes, heheheh. then i can get license plus car.

*evil smile* i wanna go get my bike license also, but i bet mommy & daddy will burst! i want but dont know if i should. if i get my license, then baby can get a 2B bike & we can SHARESHARE. :D

i got alot of things that i want, alot of things that i want to do:( money money money!

XOXO